[30 day challenge] Day-9: Happyness

 Halo, gue kayaknya mulai berfikir gue nulis karena gue galau aja ya haha 😂.

Gue berpikir untuk melanjutkan this 30-days writing challenge karena ya karena sebenarnya topiknya menarik dan ada beberapa topik yang memang mau gue tulis dan akan lebih baik apabila dibuat singkat dalam tulisan model begini daripada bikin panjang-panjang.

So switch the language and here we go to the Day-9, it's about happiness. In the title, I type it like that on purpose, because just because. If I told you all that I write because I'm sad and there are no posts for around 5 months, means yes I was happy last few months. And because I'm sad now, I can write and reminisce that happy moments again. 

What is happiness? For someone who is never sure with his feelings, I don't have any idea what is happiness. A dream come true is happy time, but is it happiness? I don't think so. Married to your wife is happy time, but is it happiness? Probably. Smiling and giggling like a bunch of girls in sorority is happy time, but is it happiness? Exactly not!

I think happiness is a fulfillness. I was happy last few months, but I don't think I have the privilege of happiness. Smiling does not mean happy, and frowning does not mean sad either. I smile because some of the dream came true, some connection went good, and the productivity felt wonder. But weirdly, I don't feel fulfilled. 

The fulfillness is a feeling when you think what you do is enough and done. Your heart stops questioning life. Your mind is at ease. Your body is relaxed. This fulfillness, does not happen exactly during happy time, but in some way could happen in sad time also. The fulfillnesss of people differs depends on value they hold. What I'm holding is the value of keep chasing, adventurer, and hungry beast. Achievement surely makes me happy, but my happiness is to have things to pursue, the eagerness to keep developing, and endless adventure.

I'm walking towards my fulfillness. Although some old proverb said "happy time creates weak men", I think I'm walking vice versa, during my happy time I found my answers. The key, always in the mind. If you want to be weak, then weak it is, but strong mind always come out stronger in whatever situation. As life cycle like a wheel, my happy time is fading and coming into desperate time, but I know I'm walking towards my fulfillness. Therefore, even though it was hard for a time of a year, I know I'm walking to my happiness.